So I was on Lexapro for my anti-depressant and after several months I was becoming extremely sad and felt like I was sinking deeper and deeper into a black hole of sadness. I wouldn't want to do anything until about 5pm and I was missing too much class and even exams. I was getting behind in my life. I went to my doctor to hopefully try something else out. To hopefully help with my intense aggression, along with depression my doc put me on Zoloft. Its been two weeks now and I have felt the difference for a week. I am not excessively upset constantly as I was before, im not scared to go out in public or walk to campus, sit in my classes, or just be awake. Before I would have driven myself crazy with being so wacked out and nervous. But now I'm not near as sad nor nervous. Instead, I am blank. Its as though I dont have any emotion to anything in my life. I dont get upset, but I dont get happy either. When my boyfriend comes home I dont get happy like I did a week ago and I dont get excited about things. Im just here. I'll do about anything. I'll wake up early, and stay at school all day. Ill get bored and tired but I dont get upset or have an urge to do something about it. I can read questions in class now, which is nice. A week ago I would not have been able to read a question, retain it, or even get all the way through the sentence.
I am glad to know that there is a possibility of me breaking through the dark room of depression, but the way I feel now is weird and estranged. Im going back tomorrow to the doctor to try to switch to Welbutrin or Effexor along with Lamictal for my aggression.
Wish me luck! Maybe since ive been brought out of my black hole i'll write on here more often ;)
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