It has been about 3 weeks since my last post. And its when I should have been posting the most. Since then, I finished finals for school, I had my christmas break, my new years eve party, and now I am starting school once again. That seems typical and like an enjoyable holidays season. Ill go in depth.After finals, I was so relieved to have passed all of my classes and then I registered for this semesters courses. I chose good classes- Personality Disorder Psych, Abnormal Psych, gender and children Literature(gen ed requirement), an easy math class (my only one thats required.. woo hoo!) and English 2. Sicne I have been having issues with my roommate, I was looking for someone to take over my lease desperately. I wanted outta there! I found a girl, seems really nice and my old roommate liked her. It was a go. I moved out and the girl moved in on the 2nd of January. I moved in with my boyfriend.. same address just different apt # lol. Christmas came and I had a nice time, I went to two christmas parties with my boyfriends family, whom I love very much but lord he has a huge family! And I get very easily overwhelmed when in a crowd so at each one we werent able to stay too long. His dad understood. His dad knows what happened to me and if very accepting. We do not discuss it but he makes certain that people around do not make crude comments on such matters. My boyfriend has a wonderful family.Then it was Christmas at my moms which was small since only my sister, my mom, stepdad, and I are the only ones living out here. The rest of my family is in California so our get-togethers are tiny but fun =) My boyfriend came over to my moms and we allhad a blast. My mom rescues dogs and she currently has 9. or 8. not sure. so each dog got more presents that anyone else did lol which doesnt matter at all, although I like gifts at christmas time, I just dont want my christmas to be revolved around who bought who what. Overrated. But anyways, so Christmas went very well, my dad mailed me 100$ to buy my boyfriend a nice gift so that surprised him which was fun. (my entire family loves him). Oh and we went and saw Benjamin Button. wonderful movie.. but me being a complete emotional case, I cried for a good 2 hours of the 3 hour movie lol I hold my emotion and sadness in until its something silly or petty, then I just start balling. It definitely catches people off guard(only do it around my family) but its funny at the same time. at least im getting it out one way or another right?So all in all, my december went well. Up until New years.Well now to New years.. Oh joy. (sarcasm.. a lot of sarcasm)to lead into it.. I moved out here 3 1/2 years ago. and since the first week I was here I have been friends with a certain guy. We will call him Bill just for the sake of typing about a number of people lol. Well Bill was a great guy, I immediately grew to have feelings for him and although the feelings were mutual, there was always something in the way of us dating. Either it was him drinking too much, his father passing away, me being with someone else, or my after Indy(my R.. it happened in indianapolis). So even though when we dated off and on, it only lasted a very short time each time. But for the first 2 years I lived here, Bill and I hung out every day, we were best friends, and we had the greatest times together. Bill never really dated anyone since Ive known him, and if so it was while I was with 'Adam'.. the guy I was with for about a year or so.. the one who drove off when I was int he restroom at Indy. It was at Bills house that I met Adam. Bill introduced us and since I took that as he didnt want to be with me, I gave up hope and started dating Adam. Later to find out he hooked Adam and I up only so he wouldnt hurt me. Which I agree, if we had dated any of those numerous times, it would not have worked out and our friendship would be destroyed.

to be continued....